A Continual Work

So here it goes... Truth is I have struggled typing out anything on this page. For 2 weeks I have cried at least one time each day. My heart is truly broken. Being a Christian I have tried to find every reason for this. "I must have sin in my life, I must be doing something wrong, maybe I made the wrong choice, maybe I didn't hear His voice". These are all things that have gone through my head trying to pin point simply why my heart hurts.

Why do we always need answers?  Why can't we ever just trust that no matter what's going on it is because the Lord is doing something and not just anything but something that will be for our good and His glory ♡

If my life truly as I claim it to be, is in the hands of God why do I kick and scream when He begins to dig deep in my heart and begin to change things about me?

And ya know, it's not always easy to feel pain, it's not always easy to have your heart exposed and touched. We as believers like to hide our ugliness, that's why often we don't like to get close to one another because then they'll see just what lies in there.

Oh but here is the thing, we are all broken people who need a perfect Savior to rescue and save us. And not just save us but we need to allow Him to do continual heart surgery when He knows it's necessary.

Now let me just say I am undergoing heart surgery right now and I am feeling every pull and tug. Being honest I thought about giving up and screaming from the operating table that it didn't feel fair that I needed to go through this. But then I realized that Jesus went through something much more trying then I'll ever walk through. It wasn't fair that a perfect God gave His life for a sinner like me. But He did and He loves me, He loves me enough to not give up on me. Even when I cry to Him angry and confused He loves me ♡

He loves you too. I just want to encourage anyone who may be going through a difficult time to not give up. When the enemy is whispering doubt in your ear cling tight to Jesus. Remember just where it is the Lord delivered you from and remember that you know you never want to enter that place ever again. The enemy always has a way of making our past without God look glamorous, oh but friends it was hell on earth which is why we cried to God to rescue us. And He did! I am thankful that He loves me enough to never give up on me. I am thankful that I stand before Him and all He sees is the masterpiece He has created.  Why would I give up and quit on a God whose love is indescribable? I wouldn't and I won't!

May you allow the Lord to refine, change and transform your life in whichever way He knows is right.

Love your sister who is Sweetly Broken! :-)