When We Just Don't Feel Like It

Philippians 2:13-18 nlt
 For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people. Hold firmly to the word of life; then, on the day of Christ’s return, I will be proud that I did not run the race in vain and that my work was not useless. But I will rejoice even if I lose my life, pouring it out like a liquid offering to God, just like your faithful service is an offering to God. And I want all of you to share that joy. Yes, you should rejoice, and I will share your joy.

Life's been busy but a good busy. We went on vacation, held a healing retreat in our home and then now I am sitting in a waiting room trying to fall asleep until my sweet sister in Christs labor starts. I'm blessed to be her doula. Anyhow I have wanted nothing more then to just blog and write but finding the pockets of quiet time just have not been possible until now at 11:54pm in a hospital waiting room on a super hard chair....

Most recently though my oldest has been on my mind. She is such a sweet girl growing into a beautiful young lady inside and out. Although she is being raised in a Christian home that doesn't mean she won't struggle with having an attitude or lack of joy in her heart. Like you and I she is human and working out her flesh that battles within.

We are blessed to serve in a food ministry and the kids always help out. Sometimes however they complain and would rather watch TV then go to serve. Sometimes as a mom I allow them to miss but there are other days I feel led like they need to be there. 2 days ago Amaya just had a snooty attitude. She said " I just don't see why I need to go?" I responded "Amaya because it's a joy to serve others in Jesus name, now go to your room and ask Jesus to change your heart." She looked at me and went to her room.

Now I am not sure what happened when she went to talk to Jesus but this girl came out then went to serve with a whole different attitude. A few people recognized how she was shinning and such a good worker serving. I laughed inside because her fleshly self was not having it. I also laugh because I know I can be the same too. I don't always feel like doing something good or serving but I know it's the right thing to do. And when my heart doesn't want to do it I simply ask Jesus to replace my heart for His.

Crazy thing about Amaya is she has been shining ever since. And that's exactly what God does. We serve Him and He pours out His Spirit of joy and blessing. I'm just so glad Amaya can witness who our Father is.