But His Word Will Never Fade

So I'm super tired to be honest but I can't help but put these words down and out from my heart....

As I lay in bed the enemies doubts and worries surround me. As I try to rest my eyes from my day that was filled with Jesus and my children. The enemy knows that rest is promised to the believer and he doesn't have the right to take it away. That won't stop him though from stealing the abundant life God has promised us. He even attacks our children from this life of abundance.

Tonight Isaiah said "I don't have a dad, well an earthly dad."

Things like this always stop me in my tracks. Although I know God's promises, my heart still aches for my kids who in fact do not have a physical earthly father who shows them any kind of fatherly affection or love. So many more things can happen in our day as we live our lives according to God's will and plan. Even on our days when we've spent most of our day for the kingdom, you better believe the enemy will be there to steal, kill and destroy.

I choose not to let him. Not tonight or never. I let him steal far too many years from my past to give him another second of the present.

So when these doubts come our way even as we try to rest we remember God's word that is filled with truth and promises. God's word will never fade away, heaven and earth shall pass but not God's word. Everything in it has come to pass but a few things and we can take His word to the bank that those things will most definitely pass.

So tonight as I hear the worries of my earthly fatherless children I stand strong on God's promises. A peace can reside within me knowing the Lord is sovereign and loves them more then I do.

So what's keeping you awake tonight. Or what's keeping your mind on things that are NOT of eternity? Give it to Jesus because He loves you far greater then you'll ever understand. He doesn't want to see you hurting or losing sleep or joy from something that's not in your control anyway.

He is good my friends and He will do a good thing! (Encouraging my heart tonight)

A Refuge For Our Children

Some days I am confident my kids will grow up to serve Jesus full heatedly and shun evil. And then other days I see the sin bound up in their hearts and in mine as well. To be honest it can be scary. It scares me sometimes when I see the influence this world has on our youth. From TV shows, to movies, from commercials to the schools. I know satan has an agenda and I know our youth including my kids are on his list.

It makes me angry! If I could personally knock him out I would, however Jesus already crushed his head so really the enemy is defeated I just need to walk in that truth daily relying on God's promises. My job is to protect my babies and that's why the Lord entrusted them to me. With personal convictions the Lord is teaching me what moral standards work for our family. I understand not everyone will agree with that but I really don't care because at the end of the day I answer to my Heavenly Father....

He who fears the Lord has a secure fortress, and for his children it will be a refuge. Proverbs 14:26

This morning the Lord spoke to me using this verse. Often times the enemy says to me "your kids will rebel someday, they will hate your ways and your rules, why even live by any standard....." ya those are the types of things I hear. And sometimes I believe them. But this morning the Lord reminded me of this promise. He said to me that being a protector,  setting a moral standard and being a mama who sets borders for her children will in fact not back fire but rather set up a safe haven. A place that welcomes her children always. No matter which path they choose to take in life, like any refuge it will be available for them always And that my kids will know that.

The bible also says "A wise man fears the Lord and shuns evil." Proverbs 14:16a

So as a woman if I am desiring this place of refuge in Jesus that I am speaking of then I must show fear of the Lord desiring good and getting rid of all forms of evil.... on my own this is impossible but daily as I die to myself I must rid my own heart of ugliness that wants to seep through. A parent can not simply say "do as I say not as I do" the problem with this is that kids will bare a bitterness deep within. God won't honor that. We as parents must also live out our faith in front of our kids. As we take heed to God's words and transform daily so too will our kids. And like the Father says as we fear Him He will become a secure fortress for our children.

So then in what shall we fear when the enemy comes to destroy our family?! Nothing! We stand strong on the promises of God. So my friends, live up rightly! Not for show and not to earn favor with God but because as you do your life will be an example unto your children. They will get to know this God we serve and they too will always find refuge in Him.

When We Just Don't Feel Like It

Philippians 2:13-18 nlt
 For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people. Hold firmly to the word of life; then, on the day of Christ’s return, I will be proud that I did not run the race in vain and that my work was not useless. But I will rejoice even if I lose my life, pouring it out like a liquid offering to God, just like your faithful service is an offering to God. And I want all of you to share that joy. Yes, you should rejoice, and I will share your joy.

Life's been busy but a good busy. We went on vacation, held a healing retreat in our home and then now I am sitting in a waiting room trying to fall asleep until my sweet sister in Christs labor starts. I'm blessed to be her doula. Anyhow I have wanted nothing more then to just blog and write but finding the pockets of quiet time just have not been possible until now at 11:54pm in a hospital waiting room on a super hard chair....

Most recently though my oldest has been on my mind. She is such a sweet girl growing into a beautiful young lady inside and out. Although she is being raised in a Christian home that doesn't mean she won't struggle with having an attitude or lack of joy in her heart. Like you and I she is human and working out her flesh that battles within.

We are blessed to serve in a food ministry and the kids always help out. Sometimes however they complain and would rather watch TV then go to serve. Sometimes as a mom I allow them to miss but there are other days I feel led like they need to be there. 2 days ago Amaya just had a snooty attitude. She said " I just don't see why I need to go?" I responded "Amaya because it's a joy to serve others in Jesus name, now go to your room and ask Jesus to change your heart." She looked at me and went to her room.

Now I am not sure what happened when she went to talk to Jesus but this girl came out then went to serve with a whole different attitude. A few people recognized how she was shinning and such a good worker serving. I laughed inside because her fleshly self was not having it. I also laugh because I know I can be the same too. I don't always feel like doing something good or serving but I know it's the right thing to do. And when my heart doesn't want to do it I simply ask Jesus to replace my heart for His.

Crazy thing about Amaya is she has been shining ever since. And that's exactly what God does. We serve Him and He pours out His Spirit of joy and blessing. I'm just so glad Amaya can witness who our Father is.