The Good Good Father

I love my kids! I'd do anything for them! When they request something for dinner I love to make it for them ( as long as its good for them). When they ask for something they need I always do everything in my power to get it to them. When they ask for prayer I instantly stop what I'm doing and pray over or with them. The joy they bring our home and my life is irreplaceable.

This may surprise you but sometimes my kids ask for things that I know aren't good for them. Like they are famous for asking for candy all the time. So 99% of the time I say no and that's not to be cruel but because candy benefits them nothing. It leaves them with a sugared rush and junk on their teeth. These crazies even ask for toys every time we walk in a store (the two little ones anyway). I know as a mother if I give them what they ask for every time even though they don't need it then it only creates an ungrateful heart. And honestly we already struggle with that in our flesh why would I encourage and water that!?

Saturday night we ran into the store to pick something up. As we walked out my son screamed and flipped out! I have not seen him do this in years he looked like an angry sad child who didn't know how to say what he was feeling. Praise God for discernment. The Spirit told me exactly the problem. I just hugged him and prayed with him. I calmed him down and stayed with him. I let him know that I loved him and was never going to leave him.

After he calmed I asked, ( knowing what the Lord had told me) "son what was that about?" His answer crushed my heart. My boy expressed something he wanted and just can't understand why he can't have it. Can I be real with you? Sometimes I ask God the same question that Isaiah asked me and about the same exact thing....

I know in my heart though that what Isaiah wants at this time won't be what's best for him. He doesn't know that though. God reminded me that just like I know these things for Isaiah how much more does our perfect Heavenly Father know these things about us. Often times I look like Isaiah screaming full of hurt anger and rage just not understanding why.

I was reminded of the time when I knew God had the power to fix my ex husband and change him but why didn't He!? I cried from the depths of my soul for my broken family that I wanted God to fix. Here we sit 4.5 years later and God didn't put my family back together the way I thought was best. It's better! I say that because I know with His infinite wisdom He knows what's best. 

Maybe you are going through the same thing right now just wondering why not. May I encourage you to trust God. His word tells us that He won't withhold one good thing from His children. He has the perfect timing for everything, friend we just need to trust Him. 

As far as my personal family goes we of course have days where our hearts hurt about the fact that this home doesn't have a husband or father in it. But may I just declare that God is faithful. Through those times that we have, He has once never left us. We have felt His presence every step of the way and He has even strengthened each of us in our faith in Him. I don't know what our future holds but I do know it'll be good because it's in the hands of a good good Father.