I Can't Do It Alone

Being a mother after salvation is the greatest gift I have received here on earth. My love for my kids is indescribable. I am coming to realize that they won't know this though until they receive the gift of becoming a parent themselves...

These past 2 weeks have been trying as a mom for me. Lately I'm dealing with bad attitudes, ungratefulness, bickering and fighting, stubbornness and temper tantrums. I want to just scream, being honest sometimes I do blow my lid and then I feel bad. I don't believe that there is any mother on earth who wants to be a bad mother or desires harm for her children. Deep inside we want what's best for them and we dream that one day they will grow into all God has created them to be.

I can't do it though and neither can you. We in our own strength can't form these beautifully well rounded children. We can't make them love God, we can't make them be kind, we can't make them be thankful or grateful and don't even bring up selfishness because you can't make them be selfless friend. I have tried and the more I go toe to toe with them the more I am defeated.

So when we lay our head down at night and Satan reminds us of all our failing moments as a mom we help him pick up the knife and stab us in our heart laying defeated dead and hopeless. Are you starting to picture the weeks I have had as a mom. Oh I love my babies and I'd go to the ends of the earth for them but boy it's a tough job.

Some give up you know, they check out and decide its easier not to parent and teach them the right way. These parents turn a blind eye to all their children are doing or they spend more time away from home rather then taking the responsibility of raising them. May we never be in the category of giving up because God never gives up on us! Matter of fact, lately I have been laughing inside as my kids have been acting out in stubbornness, selfishness and tantrums. I asked God "do I look like this as your daughter?" Ha ha ha... And He, to this day hasn't given up on me.

Friend I can't do this without Christ and neither can you. We don't force our children to be better we show them. We don't teach them not to lie we show them how never to tell a lie... You see, a child is as great as His teacher once fully trained. I believe that we will face seasons where we see nothing but our children's flesh showing and that is absolutely normal. We must never waiver and give up though. They in time will learn to walk in the Spirit if we are showing them this.

At night when they are fast asleep I lay hands on my babies (even my almost 12 year old) I lift up their weaknesses and failures I pray for the things I know they need and even the things I don't know they need. I can't do it but He can!

I believe God brings us to things so that He can reveal His strength and greatness to us. Right now in the season of parenting I am realizing that I can only be the best mom with His strength. Everyday I must glean from the greatest parent, I must spend time with Him and hearing His word and I must ask for more of Him and less of me. Because you see like you and every mother reading this in my heart I want my babies to grow and be all He is calling them to be!

Thanks for listening,
A mother who needs Him