I Can't Do It Alone

Being a mother after salvation is the greatest gift I have received here on earth. My love for my kids is indescribable. I am coming to realize that they won't know this though until they receive the gift of becoming a parent themselves...

These past 2 weeks have been trying as a mom for me. Lately I'm dealing with bad attitudes, ungratefulness, bickering and fighting, stubbornness and temper tantrums. I want to just scream, being honest sometimes I do blow my lid and then I feel bad. I don't believe that there is any mother on earth who wants to be a bad mother or desires harm for her children. Deep inside we want what's best for them and we dream that one day they will grow into all God has created them to be.

I can't do it though and neither can you. We in our own strength can't form these beautifully well rounded children. We can't make them love God, we can't make them be kind, we can't make them be thankful or grateful and don't even bring up selfishness because you can't make them be selfless friend. I have tried and the more I go toe to toe with them the more I am defeated.

So when we lay our head down at night and Satan reminds us of all our failing moments as a mom we help him pick up the knife and stab us in our heart laying defeated dead and hopeless. Are you starting to picture the weeks I have had as a mom. Oh I love my babies and I'd go to the ends of the earth for them but boy it's a tough job.

Some give up you know, they check out and decide its easier not to parent and teach them the right way. These parents turn a blind eye to all their children are doing or they spend more time away from home rather then taking the responsibility of raising them. May we never be in the category of giving up because God never gives up on us! Matter of fact, lately I have been laughing inside as my kids have been acting out in stubbornness, selfishness and tantrums. I asked God "do I look like this as your daughter?" Ha ha ha... And He, to this day hasn't given up on me.

Friend I can't do this without Christ and neither can you. We don't force our children to be better we show them. We don't teach them not to lie we show them how never to tell a lie... You see, a child is as great as His teacher once fully trained. I believe that we will face seasons where we see nothing but our children's flesh showing and that is absolutely normal. We must never waiver and give up though. They in time will learn to walk in the Spirit if we are showing them this.

At night when they are fast asleep I lay hands on my babies (even my almost 12 year old) I lift up their weaknesses and failures I pray for the things I know they need and even the things I don't know they need. I can't do it but He can!

I believe God brings us to things so that He can reveal His strength and greatness to us. Right now in the season of parenting I am realizing that I can only be the best mom with His strength. Everyday I must glean from the greatest parent, I must spend time with Him and hearing His word and I must ask for more of Him and less of me. Because you see like you and every mother reading this in my heart I want my babies to grow and be all He is calling them to be!

Thanks for listening,
A mother who needs Him

Who Am i

These past couple of weeks I have become overwhelmed and humbled by the fact that the one true God would use a woman like me.

I haven't wrote in a few weeks and this time I'm happy to say its not because I've had bad distractions. Not this time. This time I have been serving and seeking the Lord and had to take a break from my phone. As much as I love my phone too much of it can drive me nuts!

I have wanted to share so much over the past weeks though. Tonight as I lay in bed the one thing that's heavy on my heart is the lost and broken.

Again as I have sought out the Father He has put me in a place where I am able to spend some time with the hurting. Who am i, that God would want me to be His hands and feet. I have been reflecting on Jesus and His ministry here on earth and how He loved everyone. He touched the blind, the leper, the deaf and the sinner. He fed the poor and ate with the tax collectors.


Sometimes as believers we are so blessed by God that we forget what we are truly placed here on earth to do. We forget that we are called to love the lost and not judge them. We are called to feed the poor and not shy away from them thinking in our head "they are poor because of their choices". We are called to put our faith in Christ to action.

As I reflect how blessed I am I can't lose the memory of where I once was. I was poor, I was lost and I was broken. It was Christ who made me whole. It is Christ who meets my needs and its because of HIM that I have been found. I don't ever want to be in a place where I look at people through the eyes of the Pharisees. They were the ones Jesus rebuked ya know.

Sweet friends there are hundreds of hurting people who don't know Christ and are on their way to hell. May we ask the Lord to be broken for what breaks His heart and may we ask the Lord for the love that He has for the lost and poor.

Take these words in love because they came from my heart. Everyday is a new opportunity to show Gods love to the people He came to save. 💙

Who am i that the Lord of all the earth would want me to be His hands and feet.